..for ol the fun dat i had today..still d dreams are solemn...this feeling dat keeps on reminding me dat i hv to work upon myself continuously n consistently..for out ther in the real world theres a lot dat i have to face..a lot dat i have to fight ..n i listen to my fathers voice on my cell motivating me from the othr end, urging 4 jst one thng..dat being CONSTANT VIGILANCE...n when i look back at my day..n d time dat i hv spent..i dnt really see anything worthwhile dat i did the entire day...n listening to daddys urges n motivational toks suddenly becomes so difficult..with those tears in my eyes..dat wernt really ther a few seconds ago..for all the hopes and dreams dat he has 4 me...4 all the expectations tht i hv to make cum true...for ol the shopping dat my mother has to do on my card..4 all d gifts dat i hv to gv my brother..a big nothing..nothing at all..
n i turn my dads smiling photo kept on my study table down bcoz i cnt let him see the shame in my eyes for wasting yet another day...i wish he wud shout..shout and take out all his anger on me..but wat will the photo do..just nothing..because it sits ther..smiling just smiling..at what i do evryday..complaining about nothing...questioning about nothing...and now i know what sum1 meant when he had said dat SILENCE KILLS..because here i m a verdict and his silence s killing me..for he always accepts my flaws wid a smile..n all i can do is lower my eyes..because i cant see all that hurt in his eyes..deep down inside..d expectations...d dreams..d hopes..evrything ol over again..its ol over again..LOVE U DADDY..LOVE U A LOT..n i promise i ll try..4 what u dream..is ol dat means the world to me..
try...duh! i m sure u will achieve a lot more than he expects...da spark in u is tremendous sweety.....ALL da BESt and will always pray 4 u. keep smiling
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